On Friday 28 August 2009 I went to my friend Alice's house for Shanty Show, which was both a house warming and a chance for people to bring their art along to her new (thus temporarily empty) flat and exhibit it for one night. Perennially running late as I am, I hadn't had a chance to choose some pictures to bring, but I wanted to contribute something to the evening as I am very supportive of Alice's attempts to create a different sort of party and art experience. So, on the way there I wrote the following text, which I intended to read to everyone at some point in the evening. Unfortunately, the event turned out not to be conducive to a reading so the text was never read out loud, i.e., as a 'performance'. It became dormant. I found the experience which sparked the text very interesting, however, so have decided to revive it here in blogform. Thus, I am typing the text out loud now. Perhaps this is a 'performance', too:
This evening I got splashed while waiting to cross the road to go wait for a bus (352). Like what you see in the movies, this has never happened in real life before. [There was a huge amount of water in the gutter below me.] I stared at the water. And I thought how funny it was there was so much of it when it wasn't even raining today. Then I saw three buses coming toward me. I didn't move as the first approached. I stared at the water. I stared at the bus. The synapses didn't fire. A wave gushed up from the curb and sprayed the front of me with water. I went "oh" and jumped back. A woman smoking a fag stumbled past at this moment and began to laugh. I looked at her. By this stage I'd stepped back from curb, so I stepped back toward it to try to cross again. Simultaneously the second bus came. I jumped back, lightly sprayed again. The woman kept laughing as she walked away up the street. I stept [sic] forward as the third bus approached. He honks at me in warning plus I'm quicker this time, I jump back. The spray misses me. The woman is still laughing. The water is still rippling. And now I am smiling to myself and to her. I wait for a gap in the traffic and cross the road to the bus stop. Then I realise I'm much wetter than I'd thought. I pat myself down. I wait for the bus. The bus is 10 minutes late.
Performance on Saturday night (01.08.09) at Stucco in Newtown, Sydney.
Recently two things happened:
1) On 24 July I found a 'Sin Busters' pamphlet in a phone-booth in Martin Place. It outlines the fact that most people share a common problem, 'A Sinful Lifestyles' and presents ways to escape a sinful lifestyle, 'the oldest problem in World history'. The writers of this pamphlet call themselves a 'Fellowship of 'Sin Busters''. They discuss (in an English lacking proper grammar, spelling or punctuation) sin and ways that God can save us from it. They include the 'ten commandments' (which I had never read in full until finding Sin Busters), 'ten steps' to avoid sinful lifestyles, and 'ten questions' about sinful lifestyles.
I was utterly amazed by this publication, and was not certain whether it was serious or a joke. There is a cartoon devil on the front and the text contains linguistic gems such as, 'Sure their is pleasure in Sin for a season. What about when the season is over?' and 'GOD is a jealous God. He is very passionate about his relationship with his Children, He doesn't want to see us hurt ourselves. Kids. They gotts make their own mistakes.' I think it is serious. I was very happy/excited to find this pamphlet.
2) Last week, for some reason, the words 'I am not religious' came to me. I was at my university and I either read them, overheard them or thought them. Whichever it was, I was suddenly struck by how peculiar they are. I wondered what would happen to those words if they were repeated over and over again. I found something very interesting in the repetition of these four words, 'I am not religious'. Something happens to those words when they are repeated. They become contradictory or paradoxical or something, a metamorphosis occurs.
Because 1) and 2) seem to be somehow subconsciously related, I thought it would be interesting to combine them into one action - to read them as a performance. I appropriated the text of 'Sin Busters' into something of my own (see below) and I copy/pasted the words 'I am not religious' as many times as would fit on a standard one-page Word document (147, see above).
Because many performances intrinsically require music, because I love music, because it is undoubtedly a wonderful tool to aid the conveyance of meaning and because, at the very least, it adds a level of resonance to a performance, I decided to give the above explanation, as well as read the texts themselves to some music by SINC:
This is the text that was read:
An appropriation of what SIN BUSTERS says:
INTRODUCTION ‘Sin Busters’ began in Newcastle, Australia in 1992 several men met to discuss their common problem, A Sinful Lifestyles obsession to sin the oldest problem in World history sin has reigned on the earth a spiritual Illness or disease send us to a GODLESS ETERNITY our Human or Flesh natures try to keep these in our thoughts Of course every Good intention of ceasing from our old way Oh Wretched Men began to despise ourselves But today We have discovered be ‘BORN AGAIN’ Thankyou The 1960’s a good decade for our enemy darker shade of Pornography The Pot smoking Flower People…etc. Consider the Man & Woman Starlight, Starbright they hide a more sinister motive FLESHY PIGS! He is very passionate He doesn’t want to see us hurt ourselves Kids make their own mistakes a bit of sin in the Camp Guys Flowing with milk and honey Growth a sinful lifestyle does take time Forty years in the Wilderness No longer
WHAT IS SIN However understand what sin is look for something the Nature and Character of sin Newcomer the TEN COMMANDMENTS a very good example The Author has excellent Credential (Hi God) But Hey! Who counting? They were written in stone an authority on sin salvation born into sin guilty of sin God is also guilty love in the 1st Degree Many believe nailed to the cross ask yourselves concerning the D-EVIL Need we say more to Hell with him
TEN COMMANDMENTS thou have me thou shalt make images thou in vain remember keep holy honour and mother thou kill thou adultery thou steal thou against neighbour thou is neighbour
RECOVERY PROGRAM Ten Steps of Recovery a sinful lifestyle it was necessary about certain changers within ourselves to achieve this laid down help we had to admit we were powerless the Law of Sin & Death first step stay away sin need to fulfill carry the Message to others We know on the way be nice take some people friend family Mother in Law Perhaps not God is a people person All the world a vineyard we each have our part to play petty denominational differences We need the blessing from Unity a real enemy move back high Moral ground echo down the corridors of time, and into eternity A day stood as one declared with one voice You are going to live on take back This is the Day THERE WAS A DREAM ONCE
TEN STEPS death unmanagable believe righteousness commitment shows us made honest ourselves confess another nature sins absolutely imperfections flesh willing to accept maintain inventory sought to enhance knowledge awakening lives
TEN QUESTIONS your reputation lifestyle institution sinful lives people’s life lifestyle well-being are you currently living, one day at a time? lifestyle more than money sin nation currently dying considered self as a result
After reading the above text, I attempted to say 'I am not religious' 147 times. I failed.